Next Sunday I'll be taking on the world best in Vancouver as part of Team Canada. This is supposed to be the time when I say that training is going amazing. I should be saying like most people that I am feeling like a fish in the water and Prefrontaine on the run and that every morning I wake up and piss excellence. Unfortunately for whatever reasons, reasons that I nor anyone else that I have talked to, doctors coaches can figure out, it been an awful 9 days. It has been a nightmare both physically and mentally. To sum it up I have felt flat and awful in training, well the limited training that I have done and depressed and stressed mentally.
So this post isn't a wallow in my sorrows woe is me type story. It a put it in the past, sometime life sucks but whatever. I am a believer in fate and a believer in learning. There going to be a reason for all this, it one of those take one step back to take two step forwards kind of scenario. I am also a believer in myself. It doesn't matter what has happened in the past, I know that when I get to the start line of the Worlds I am going to kill it. And I don't mean kill it as in place really well, that is beyond my control. I mean kill it as in maximize my performance on the day. To have the drive, confidence and focus on the day to get everything out of myself. If that put me in first or if it gets me lapped on the bike, Its all good I will have "Champed it".
We'll if your reading this sorry to put you through a sappy self realization post. I probably used more Cliches than a Kanye West song but sometimes writing helps you get out your emotions and feelings that can be sorted out in your head.
"The World ain't all Sunshine and Rainbows it’s a very rough mean place. And no matter how tough you think you are it’ll always bring you to your knees and keep you there. Permanently if you let it. You or nobody ain’t never gonna’ hit as hard as life.
But it ain’t about how hard you hit, it’s about how hard you can get hit and keep movin’ forward…how much you can take and keep movin' forward. If you know what your worth go out and get what your worth, but you gotta’ be willin’ to take the hit" - Rocky
Well I am off to try a indoor cycling workout that I have been unable to finish two times in the past week. Third time is a charm though. Time to Rock.